I’m pretty sure i’ve really gone crazy now…..I can’t be happy no matter how hard I try to be. I’ve been pushed down and kicked around by you. Being used as an emotional band-aid and a “test run” girlfriend feels like fucking shit. I guess i’m unlovable and ugly. I’ve never done so much in a relationship and then you lie to me all throughout it and THEN rub it in my face about your new girl. I don’t wanna hear any of the god damn shit you spew out of that hole in your face about her. Like, yeah just spit in my face while your’e at it. There isn’t any bright side, so i’ve turned back to my darker side, at least then i’m not lying about how I feel. The music just speaks to me, I don’t feel alone. I just want to hate you but i can’t, its impossible for me, and i hate that about me. 

“I’ve lost my god damn mind, It happens all the time” - The Drug in Me is You by Falling in Reverse

—- damn it felt good to let my feelings out